I am trying not to type much, weekends, so as to favor my gimpy left hand. (Spent the afternoon trying out a heating pad and simultaneously discovering that Dream has found some charm in lap-cat-dom. I have spent worse afternoons.) I do, however, feel compelled to toss out a few blogbacks.
First, one for Mark: Think you can scare me with markup, sugar? Me? Nah. I turned an entire English dictionary, corrupt data from an obsolete typesetting system, into valid XML singlehanded. (Yes, I wrote the DTD too. The customer made me dumb it down, unfortunately.) I did. Markup hath no terrors.
Okay, okay, RDF and topic maps and sometimes XSLT scare the living daylights out of me. But that’s different.
Seriously, you gave me exactly the answers I was looking for, and I appreciate it. If the gimp (not the GIMP, which is something altogether different) allows, I’ll start on an accessibility makeover of Textartisan tomorrow. Won’t take too much effort; at least I’m starting from fairly clean markup. I can see I need some language indicators, though, and you caught me redhanded on <caption>.
A reader (sorry, I forgot to ask permission to mention him by name when I emailed back) suggested “blogilante” as the Spanish for “blogger” (on the analogy of “vigilante,” of course). Not bad for our more, er, aggressive bloggers. My husband suggested “bloguero,” and I’m kicking myself that it didn’t occur to me first.
And one for AKMA: “… hardly any of us wants forgiveness”? My heart, man, that’s bleak.
Maybe it’s because I grew up in a Jewish household and rarely missed the all-day Yom Kippur services that I try very hard not to let fear keep me from the kind of encounters with truth that you rightly indicate earning forgiveness requires. The Yom Kippur liturgy is stunningly clear: first you figure out whom you’ve hurt and make appropriate amends, then you ask forgiveness from your victims, and only then do you dare seek forgiveness from God.
I am no longer a Jew, if indeed I ever was one (and you could ask six rabbis about this and get seven answers). I do not attend services, nor do I pray privately. I do remember much of the Yom Kippur liturgy—I can sing the Avinu Malkeinu from memory without more than one or two prompts—and I very clearly remember how uncomfortable I felt every single year because of things I had done that I did not know how to ask absolution for.
I learned when I grew up (which took me longer than it should have) that not screwing up in the first place is generally easier than earning forgiveness. Easier said than done, I know, having already made several mistakes just on this two-month-old blog. Speaking professionally, however, I can at least say that I have been offered one or two chances to sell out, and thus far I’ve turned ’em down because I couldn’t live with a sold-out self. It isn’t much, I grant; my small but earnest hope is that doing right in relatively low-importance situations will create a reflex that helps me do right when real devilry presents itself.
As for what happens when I do screw up, sure, I’ll take amnesty when it’s offered me. (I get it from my husband far more than I deserve.) Failing that, however, I’ll go for forgiveness every time. The alternative, given my peculiar twists of mental wiring, is endless self-hating rumination on my error. The kind of hell that leads to—again, given my peculiar twists of mental wiring—it is better not to talk about, okay?
I don’t know where that puts me in your catalogue of humanity. Hell’s bells, I don’t even know if you (or anyone else, for that matter) can muster belief in what I just said of myself. I do know, though, that I have met people whose basic decency, resistance to all sorts of selling-out, and eagerness (not just willingness) to confront their own failings make me quite ashamed. If your catalogue has no room for me, it must at least account for them.
My hand is threatening to gimp up again; better stop now. I have been looking at programmable foot pedals, but the only ones I can find are hideously expensive. A keyboard innovation would help, if anyone had only thought of it: put shift, control, and alt keys underneath the space bar so that they can be thumbed instead of little-fingered. It’s the frequent hit-and-hold motion from my weakest finger that has caused me most damage, all told.